What is insane in your life? It doesn't have to mean you’re mentally ill, but are you still in bondage with your body? I just can’t achieve a Godly lifestyle; but what does that mean? Should I become agnostic and give up on God because of it? It sure doesn't. You see: When man reaches a high in his Christian life, what is he doing at that very moment to keep it new?

You see, we have to do the same thing over and over to maintain this upper. Not relating upper to drugs, but an upper spirituality. Do I image myself as this person now? No, because if I was I would be in Cambodia right now or I’d have graduated from Hyles Anderson College. When man then experiences a void of the spirit and is in a solo state from God like I feel; you must be careful because the tempter—you can call him anything you like—will get into your mind, then into your heart; twisting up what’s inside of you. He will do everything in his power to keep you down and in a lost state of emotional trance. So catatonic that it’s too much to handle at times. And then you, like I, finally cry out to God. But what faith is this? It's agnostic [dead] faith crying out to God only when you are in despair.

So what’s to do to prevent this bad outcome? You must stay sane in your path with God; and you can overcome anything with his help. So many people … so many dying … so much pain ... And what!? All they are and have experienced is achievable with God's help. Not in the bad way—like conquering the world—but in the good. As long as there are people there will be a virus; and the antidote is God. Don’t indulge yourself in a void world too long. Because then you will start making irrational decisions; and those decisions are of the world.

Some man was tempted before, like you and I, and he fought that person with the word. Sure you can command the stones to turn into bread, sure you can have the whole empire of Earth, and sure he could have not died when he fell from that pinnacle. But you know what he did? He refused to quit and stayed sane to God! He is now my very determination and my will power to get through the day.

There was once this girl who under-goad the same experiences as I, and she refused herself to accept God. Is she in Hell? I don’t know; but that exorcist was brought before trial. Man was persecuting him, trying to bring him down for letting that beautiful, unhappy girl die. But he kept steadfast and always prayed before he went to bed at night. And God wiped away all that girl's family’s tears, and that very exorcist was brought the final judgment; time served. Stay sane, although not everything will come out to your plan; you must not forget God's plan is always perfect, and always right.